An Unread Love Letter

“You won’t ever see the petals,
That lay on this sheet of white.
Which says so many things,
Like sorry about that fight.

It tells you I love you forever,
I am missing you too.
And I miss hearing those words,
Every single I love you.

I had always told you,
I will love you until I die.
And you have been on my mind,
As the years slowly go by.

I was going to visit you,
I saw the wreathe on your door,
And that had let me know,
You can’t love me anymore.

My eyes haven’t stopped crying,
And also my heart still aches.
Thinking of those times we shared,
Sharing those soft-drinks and shakes.

Seeing that lipstick mark on that cup,
Of coffee brings more tears to me.
And I am just wishing you knew this,
And wishing that you could see.

And thinking when you turned,
And you had just walked away.
You had didn’t turn to look at me,
And you had nothing to say.

I haven’t been in the bedroom,
Since I can’t I remember.
Maybe it was since you left me,
On that chilly, dreary December.

I wondered if he held you tightly,
And close at night in bed.
Or did you both lay apart,
And nothing was ever said.

I was tired of sitting at home,
Had plenty of happy hours for only one.
Spending my nights all alone in bars,
Thinking that would be a way to have fun.

But nothing ever helped,
Get rid of our memories.
I remembered you every time,
I would get down on my knees.

So I close this letter,
Which I wrote to,
You and no one else.
I have always loved you.”

I finished reading aloud,
As I looked into the casket.
Placing the envelope down,
In her flower-filled basket.

Forgive me

Forgive me father for I have sinned
100 times and again.
I have replaced my loving heart
With lust filled eyes.
I have encased my once loving heart
In a little black box and thrown away the key.

My soul is sold and lost to the shadows
In hopes of killing this pain.
And yet it remains, this sorrow, this lonelyness
It leaves an empty spot in my black forsaken heart.
A spot none can fill save one...

Forgive me father for I have lost my faith
The faith false men and women try to restore.
Your liars whome offer me redemption
That in the end, mean nothing.

For we die.
There is no afterlife
No greater place.
It's a myth, a fairytale
Much like the elves and the unicorns.

Forgive me father for I have lost my hope
The hope of a better world
One with no wars, no greed, no pointless deaths.
But such a place does not exist
In this world or the next.

This is it, here and now
This world is our paradise, our Garden of Eden.
And as such, is our eternal resting place.

So forgive me father,
but i need you not.